Deadication 808 word count

“Deadication”

This poem is ‘deadicated’ to YOU
To the one who told me that
it was game over
before I even had a chance
To insert my very last quarter
Into the slot and press start
To the ones who placed
All their bets against me
And relied on nothing but luck
To prevent me From pulling out a wild card
To the big muscle bound bullies,
The non believers
The judges,
The ‘Siskel & Eberts’
(Those prejudice bastards!)
And the never ending questions
That I always tried to answer
To the best of my ability,
But was never quite good enough
Because it wasn’t quite exactly
What you wanted to hear
This poem right here
Is ‘deadicated’ to every stuck up girl
in my grade 10 school year
who called me ugly,
and made me feel like
I would never have a beautiful lady
By my side whom I truly could say
“I love to you too”
This is ‘Deadicated’ to every direction
That told me to go left
When I chose to go right instead
Because I wanted to prove THEM wrong
And…to every time limit that spoke,
As if it were saying that
“That half-Japanese,
Half-Chinese looking Filipino kid
Speaking to me right now is
taking way too long to get his point across!”
This one is deadicated to my Father,
Whom at first, Failed to see the
true beauty of hip hop culture
Labeling it as nothing but a gateway
To drugs, sex, and gang related violence
And…to my high school math teacher,
who pushed me to do my assignments,
only because the answer key
In the back of his textbook
Showed me that success,
Was merely just a product of the focus,
multiplied by the x number of times
That one follows the rules,
And Failure, was simply just a sum
Of the fight plus the freedom
To do whatever you wanted to do
“You want to be a poet!?
You want to be an artist!!??
No, no, no…
You mean that you want to be a broke ass bum
Begging for change on stage
Because that will not support you through life
And while most of my colleagues
Took what he said for granted
I took it to the heart
Started to think of all the possibilities
Of getting off to a fresh start
I thought of everything you saw as unrealistic
And then I thought about packing my bags
And leaving when you said,
Uh uh, no way, it is not going to happen
No return of the dragon,
No second try,
Just one long hard cry,
Followed by one sad goodbye,

Goodbye!!!

…But…but…but
As time flied by,
and I grew wise
I began to realize
How easy it would be
To just; throw in the towel
Raise the white flag,
And utter the simple words
“I Quit”
..and yes, for a while there
I must admit that you did have my King in check
Stole my queen right before my eyes
And broke my heart
Quicker than I could ever break a sweat
But just like any bet
Placed against a one to five odd,
Just like any kid whose had his ass whooped
So bad to the point that
He has decided that he’s going to do more
Than just dodge that much the next time around
Just like any dead tree,
That should not be considered dead at all
For as long as there is still
blood pumping from the pen,
those who believe those who suck
will eventually suck on those who suck,
because you better believe
that those who suck
will ‘suck-ceed!’…in the end
what does not kill me will only make me stronger
but you see strength is not measured
by the amount of muscle mass in the body
Strength is measured by that heart-filled, mindful will
that carries you through that long impossible journey
Therefore, before a classroom full of clenched fists
gets dismissed from class
I will race you to the flagpole
At the sound of the 3:30 school bell,
And I will beat you to the punch
Yes I will beat, beat, beat, beat, beat, beat, beat, beat,
beat myself to death nine times
And resurrect ten times afterwards,
Before you could lay one hand on me
For every time I fall, I will rise
With the hopes of you forgetting my name
So that I could have the joy of re-introducing you
…My name is poetry,
Embodied by both Gods and Goddesses
Who will live my life for as long as you will listen
And will continue to believe
that for as long as there is a will
There WILL be a way,
To weight out the probability with the possibility
Of having one
Brand new,
Beautiful day
So please…
Get out Of my way